Newsweek had a great article about infant development in their August 15, 2005 issue that delved into fascinating research on how infants develop self esteem, show jealousy, and express empathy:

After a few minutes, Hart leaves the room and returns cradling a lifelike baby doll. Dramatically, Hart places it in Cheryl Bateman's arms, and tells her to cuddle the doll while continuing to ignore Victoria. "That's OK, little baby," Bateman coos, hugging and rocking the doll. Victoria is not bored anymore. At first, she cracks her best smile, showcasing a lone stubby tooth. When that doesn't work, she begins kicking. But her mom pays her no mind. That's when Victoria loses it. Soon she's beet red and crying so hard it looks like she might spit up. Hart rushes in. "OK, we're done," she says, and takes back the doll. Cheryl Bateman goes to comfort her daughter. "I've never seen her react like that to anything," she says. Over the last 10 months, Hart has repeated the scenario hundreds of times. It's the same in nearly every case: tiny babies, overwhelmed with jealousy.

The original should be at Newsweek, or you can check this archived copy.

Katherine's birthday started Monday, August 8, 2005, when, at 7 am, I woke up to a gushing feeling. At first I thought it was more mysterious maternal fluids, until about 3 minutes later, I got another one. That was enough to wake me up and send me to the bathroom. Much to my horror, there was blood everywhere, and it was flooding out of me. I screamed for Joel, and he came to assess the situation. I sent him off to call the doctor's office, but for some reason he couldn't get the phone to go through...maybe he had the wrong number in his palm or something. I finally put in a pad and found my phone, and dialed the doctor's office. I got their answering service, but was quickly patched through to a sleepy doctor on call. I told her my situation, that I was 36 weeks with placenta previa, and that I was bleeding heavily.

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I decided to have maternity photos taken to capture this last week for posterity. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be...I'm a little shy when it comes to baring it all for strangers. I decided not to do any nude photos, I just can't handle it, but I did do some in a totally sheer nighty. It's not that I'm ashamed of the pregnant body, I'm just not sure I'm comfortable in it. I haven't gained tons of weight, only 19 pounds to be exact, so it's not that I feel fat. I just don't feel like myself, and I don't look like myself. I don't know where these breasts came from...I used to have these little perky things and now they look like someone's food delivery mechanism. I'm not sure I'm happy about that! The tummy looks cool, and it's so big now that it even dwarfs the butt, but still, I'm not sure it's mine.

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